Do You Know What......... NSFW - RATED -R!!

Hey y'all, it's me again.  I just wanted to write this separately and not with the Halloween stuff.  So last night I said I went to bed, well fell asleep around midnight kind of - well it was even more perturbing because I used one of my "friends" before it was time to go to sleep, and usually after having an orgasm a few times, I just pass out.  And it was a great session!!  Like, one of the bests I have had in like forever because I was able to quiet my mind, focus on the Sound Baths I put on (which I highly recommend for pleasuring yourself as well as tarot reading or just a good 'ole soul cleansing) and just relax.  Relaxing is hard for me.  For one, my mind seems to be constantly thinking so I try to focus on the "Music" but sometimes it is hard.  I am really bad about tensing up and trying to force it which is no bueno.  You might get off, but you feel like you worked for it so hard, was it worth it?

A long time ago, you can find it in the blog, I hosted a party for sex toys, etc.  I myself was not familiar with them at all.  I had always heard about the Rabbit, so of course I went for something like that, but it was the whole shaft shall we say?  I remember it had these pearl looking beads that rotated around towards the bottom of it.  It was pretty, and of course it was pink, but not sure what those were supposed to do.  Different speeds, all that jazz but my issue was you're basically trying to shove a whole "penis" in your vagina and I am sorry but, that was not a turn on.  My favorite was the bathtub.  I think I saw it on a movie once, tried it, and that was eye-opening!  Then we got one of those fancy shower heads that was removable, OMG.  Did Bryan know?  No.  I was always taught men need to think they are "KING" when it comes to sex lol.  But the big thing for me also was I learned I was a squirter.  If you do not know what that is ladies, it means when you have an orgasm, it's very wet.  Gets messy like put a towel down or maybe two just in case.  Some men think it is hot, some don't.  I have always been self-conscious about it since finding out it could happen when I got older and Bryan was as he calls "finger-banging" me.  Later on in our marriage I asked his thoughts, he said he doesn't mind it, but it is messy.  LOL. 

And like I said earlier, realizing I could do it in the shower or tub, way better and cleaner and I didn't have to be embarrassed of it.  But the thing was, that hardly ever happened with the rabbit.  I didn't really care for the whole penis inside; it was what was happening to my clitoris.  I didn't realize that is what felt so good until, I bought a vibrator that was literally just a stimulant for it.  I now own one that is comparable to I think they call it the bullet, but it is completely chargeable via a phone charger!!!!!!!!!! and then one that stimulates and sucks!!!!!! your clit.  Now that one, you definitely need to make sure you're in the mood cause sometimes it feels like it is going to suck but a lip or two if you don't have it positioned just right.  I also highly recommend darkness, fans pointed on you, and make sure you either sprayed down your bedding with your favorite scent or at least have a candle going.

Last night, it had been a while since I had that many orgasms because like I mentioned earlier, I get stuck in my head not to make a mess and squirt, but Jesus was it worth it.

So, if you are anything like me and need suggestions before you take 20 plus years to figure out YOU - Ask me!

PS.  Someone just messaged me - yes, both get warm as well.

XOXO ~ Nicole