God's Will

The title of this post comes from the name of the song by Martina McBride, I have said ever since I heard it that it was my song for Taylor, and I used to hold him and sing it to him but changed the words to say God's Taylor. Last night I found something out that would be startling to any mother, and I happened to come across the song in Napster but decided not to play it, knowing I would brake down in tears and I was trying to be strong for Taylor, I chose anger to these other children instead of tears.

Taylor has not wanted to go outside to play for about a month now, when I asked him why he wouldn't he jokingly said he was a vampire and did not like the sunlight. This was not an absurd answer because he was watching at the time the movie The Littlest Vampire quite a bit and thought it was a pretty cool movie. I just let it go and Taylor occupied himself with the wii, computer games, or playing in his room.

Last night, I was babysitting my aunt's son who is almost 15, and he had come in from playing outside with Claire and some neighbor kids. He sat down at the table and was drawing when Taylor came over to watch what he was doing. I heard Preston ask my son why he didn't want to go outside any more and his answer punched me in the stomach. Taylor told his older cousin he didn't want to go out anymore because the kids make fun of him and call him "Mr. Tippytoe".

I had no idea. I wanted to go outside and rip those kids' heads off. My son will not go out to play because other children make fun of the way he walks. It's killing me but it was also a rude awakening, it makes me realize that Taylor is not going to have an easy life if we chose not to go forth with the braces, shots, etc. My dad had mentioned to me about Taylor being teased by the way he walks, and I just shrugged it off, thinking who could possibly tease this beautiful boy? So, today is the day we go and have the first round of shots, our appointment is at 1pm so everyone keep us in your thoughts and prayers.

On a happier note, I had a conference yesterday with Taylor's teacher and school specialists to find out how well he is doing in Kindergarten, all of his tests came back in the range of where he should be for a normal 5 year old boy, oh and he is going to be graduating to the 1st grade! Momma is so very proud of you Taylor Bug!!