I am sure that everyone thinks back to previous relationships, the good-the bad- and the ugly. Paul was my high school sweetheart. He was the first person I ever had sex with. He was also the first man to ever ask me to marry him.
We dated off and on for a little over 4 years. I moved away from home with him. I got my first apartment with him. I started college as his fiance. I had my first tequila hangover with him. Over the years, we started to grow apart though. He was changing into more of a party animal and wanting to spread his wings. I was used to having him wrapped around my finger so I, well lets just say I was not always the nicest girl. He cheated, I cheated -- we broke up and then got back together. *Sigh* Young love.... It ended though and from what I can remember not well. I think of only good memories of Paul Michael but I worry sometimes that his memories of me may not be so giddy. So....
I sent him an email, and it goes something like this:
I wanted to send you a "letter" because there was a few things I wanted to talk to you about.
The other night Bryan and I were talking and I cannot remember actually what the conversation was about, but he mentioned he would like to meet you some day. Needless to say I was a little shocked. None of my other boyfriends/fiances have ever asked to meet a previous one. But Bryan is not like anyone I have ever been with before. For starters, he is the father of my beautiful daughter Claire. Secondly, he was the first "real" relationship that I had after you. He was the boy I fell in love with in GA that broke my heart and well, 9 years later here we are. He is also the man that loves my son unconditionally and makes me smile/laugh every day. I guess he wants to meet my high school sweetheart, the first guy who I gave my heart to you.
I want to apologize to you, because I don't think that I ever did. Knowing me back then, I would have been just fine with you thinking everything was always your fault. I still have issues with saying I am wrong, but hey I cant be perfect right? I cannot even remember now why we broke up. Why I went to live in GA. Why we never talk anymore. I spoke to you a few times over the years when I first returned to Texas and that was fun. I am not asking to be all buddy-buddy with you. I think I just wanted you to know that I am sorry for everything I did and didn't do when I was with you. I am sorry for not staying in touch with you. But I am thankful that my high school days brings memories of you.